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October 18th, 2005
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In memoriam, Matthew Holt
Last night I went to a memorial service for the husband of a co-worker. He was an engineer who designed motorcycles, and loved to ride them, and he died in a motorcycle accident on Friday, his birthday, on his way to meet Lisa for dinner. The service was a nice one, with music and poetry and shared memories of Matt. Afterwards we went outside and the many assembled motorcycles did a "revving of the engines" that was very like an honor guard salute. I didn't know Matt well, but you could tell that he was much loved, and will be much missed.

During the service they read a very touching poem I'd not heard before that I liked a lot. Poking around on the web, it looks like it was written by David M. Romano.

When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an Angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind,
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
and all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.

But you have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

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Date:November 15th, 2005 03:33 am (UTC)


I've never seen this website until tonight. I found it Googling Matthew's name. Today marks the first month since Matthew's accident. I am his sister.

He is terribly missed. Thank you for sharing the poem with others. It was nice to read your perspective on the service.

My parents and I are very appreciative for the "family" Matthew made while in Michigan. He had a very loving wife, many wonderful friends, and an awesome community. The love and support that was shown toward us while we were there last month touched our hearts.
Date:December 1st, 2005 04:22 am (UTC)

forever in our lives

Dear Anne, thank you for the website. I grew up with Matt in OKC and just learned of his passing. My heart goes out to his family and friends. His memories have always been dear to me from our early years, teen years and beyond. No matter where we go he will always have a presence in my life. I know he will be missed yet for all to know he will always be with us in our hearts. Terri in OKC
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